Today's verses are John 11:19-21: "... and many of the Jews had come to Martha and Mary to console them concerning their brother. So when Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went and met him, but Mary remained seated in the house. Martha said to Jesus, 'Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.'" My child, I began the journey to Bethany, a city about two miles from Jerusalem. When I finally arrived, Lazarus had been in the tomb four days. In that day, burial usually occurred immediately after death.
Some Jewish writings in antiquity have suggested a belief that the soul hovered over the body for three days, hoping to reenter it. My having arrived four days after death would have made those who held this silly superstition even angrier toward me for delaying my arrival. It could be that Martha held this belief, thus fueling her disappointment and anger toward me.
She was terribly disappointed and angry with me. Mary remained seated in the house with the multitude of mourners who gathered. Their presence was commonplace in that day. They would be present, crying and grieving with the family over the loss. Martha did not like the environment. When she heard I was approaching, she came to me and met me outside the home. Immediately, she expressed her disappointment: "Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died."
Some seem horrified that a mere human would dare speak to my Father's only Son this directly. They think it disrespectful.
My child, you need to know this truth: I love it when my children cry out to me. Feelings aren't right or wrong. They simply are. Everyone has them. Everyone feels them. They are a part of your created order, given to you by my Father in heaven. They are inbuilt responders to life situations surrounding you.
With feelings, there are two wrong extremes to which you can go. On the one end, you can stuff them. You can refuse to admit them. You can pretend they are not present. This is unhealthy. if you don't deal with them, they will eventually pummel your insides toward depression. Contrarily, you can dump them on anyone and everyone around you. This isn't healthy either. It will cause people to run from your presence. They are not equipped to handle your continual, emotional dumps.
What is the answer? Come to me with your feelings. Tell them to me. Cry out to me. Tell me everything that is occurring within you. My friend David did this to me over and over again in the psalms, as did other writers in the psalms. I was not upset with him, nor will I be upset with you. I am quite able to handle them. Indeed, I want you to do so!
Come to me, all you who are burdened and heavy of heart. Be honest about what you are feeling, as Martha was with me. I wasn't angry with her for doing so. I won't be with you. Let me carry your feelings. Cast all of them upon me. Tell me honestly what you are feeling today!
You can trust me today.