Every year, Forest Hill Church presents a collection of weekend messages to deliver what is most significant, the Gospel. Because God’s Word is the foundation of this church, our pastors and staff gather to craft our series of messages with the Holy Spirit’s guidance and prayer. Our hope is that every individual who hears each message may learn the truth of Christ and grow deeper in Him.
I hope you enjoy this story of purpose, hope and joy in the midst of struggle.
Laurin’s story- “Why God?”
For Laurin Reule, it was her doctor’s prognosis that felt like what Habakkuk experienced. “You’ll no longer be able to drive,” He said. What she thought was a yearly eye exam had turned into an exhausting appointment at a retina specialist’s office. In disbelief she responded,
“But I have to drive. I just got accepted into a nursing program and it takes me 45 minutes to get there!”
Laurin was thrilled about nursing school. She felt like her hard work and persistence had finally paid off. But Stargardts disease had become her new reality.
“It is a form of juvenile macular degeneration. It is rare, and only 1 out of 10,000 are diagnosed. There is a possibility my vision could get to 20/200 and stabilize there. I just don’t know how much worse it will get and when it may happen,” she said.
At the young age of 25 and newly married, it felt unfair to have to worry about losing her eyesight. She couldn’t help but to ask, “Why, God?”
“The hardest part is not knowing. I don’t know if in a couple years I’ll be able to get my license renewed, if I’ll be able to go to the grocery store by myself or if I will ever be able to take my kids to school.” It was during her most difficult days when God spoke to her through May’s sermon series, “Why God?” When she heard Habakkuk questioning God amidst incomprehensible circumstances, it was as if he were speaking Laurin’s own words.
Through this series, God’s words and His presence slowly calmed Laurin’s heart. Her days are now spent in hope of what God has in store for her, rather than fearing the unknown. Laurin now asks, “What’s next?” instead of “Why, God?”
Despite her doctor’s words, Laurin celebrated her one year anniversary as a nurse last October.
When God tells Habakkuk, “Behold, his soul is puffed up; it is not upright within him, but the righteous shall live by faith.” Habakkuk obeys by choosing to live by faith with the things he does not understand.
Laurin continues, “My doctor told me I could not be a nurse and that I’d have to change my career path, but He is not God. I may not be a nurse for too long and that is not the plan I had in mind, but I feel confident believing that God has a plan for me. ”
“Yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my Salvation.
God, the Lord is my strength; He makes my feet like the deers,
He makes me tread on my high places.”